Just me....
Im nothing special, no great beauty no rocket scientist just me.
I grew up in a small Welsh community.. We didn have much and childhood was difficult but what I do have costs nothing.. Honesty,Loyalty and such a good heart.. My good qualities lol.. my not so good ones are stubborness and insecurity.. I think the latter being cus ive never had it.. My poor Tony has such big shoes to fill lol.. I have some baggage mainly carried from my childhood and through my teens.. Life was mainly unbareable and you carry that shit with you and as much as you try to forget or supress it all it really never leaves you..I put a brave face on to the outside world but in here hidden in my own little blog I can be myself and express what I want to say without fear of upsetting anyone.
My life has mainly sucked,hence the reason I started writing in the first place.. I have so much to give and not enough time to give it all.. I wish I could turn back the hands of time but I cant so instead im trying to live my life to the best of my ability.. Im so in love that it hurts.. For the first time in my entire life I feel what true love is and ive never even met him, yet I know I want to be with him for the rest of my life... I get so frustrated with it all and so impatient.. time is ticking away and I hate that its being wasted while we sit in different countries.. My life can never be just simple always shrewn with obstacles .. God gives us shit to deal with cus it makes us who we are.. I prayed tonight for the first time in a while and asked God... Please God for once in my miserable existence let me keep Tony.. Let me live long enough to be with the man I love..you've had your foot in my ass so long that your gonna find it hard to break the habit but please atleast try and guide me.. thats all I ask for.. afterall happiness is free... right?.. :D